:-: Back to bLoGdOm --> LiL l@Te ThOuGh :-:

I know i have been lil busy to blog;though this is not an idealistic & realistic reason which i also know.So sorry for the same. Anyways lot of things have happened ever since i have shared my thoughts last time and i am bit confused so as to put them all in words here. Lets try and see if i get some sorta success. :)

I neva thought of applying my brains to clear what you call it as few set of questions and will be on board for next flight to Athens. Yeah,Athens happened to me recently and i was almost done with the decision to leave India and work in Athens for around 2 years. Everything was finalized except for the fact that plenty of things were going on in maah mind. My mom, my hard working dad and his efforts , my sweet sister who needs me the most right now. You know its not that easy to say i am leaving my country and going to a place where i am away from the family, my country and over all "myself". It was tough on my part to reject the offer though 99 percent people suggested me to leave and earn big bucks; but since i have some plans for my family and other responsibilities  i made a decision. Believe one of the very tough decisions of my life, i rejected the offer. But at the end of the day if i sit and look back at maah decision,I feel i don't regret my decision though it was opposing to those 99 % people, coz it is my decision and i am ready to defend it. Good job !!

After a flurry of events, I was seeking professional growth as i have always been career oriented person. Wait will be back after sometime to blog you more .. Chill till then :)

Yeah i am back after spending the whole day in finalizing the moldings of furniture for my new house. Hang on !! Did i tell you that i have recently gifted a duplex house to my parents? I think i haven't mentioned it. Anyways neva mind, lemme tell you that i have bought a new home in Indore which is a gift for my mom and dad. So we all (me and my sis) are busy in decorating the interiors of the same as we are planning to shift to the new house by Diwali, the festival of lights and indeed the right time to make a move. I have realized that it is not that easy to buy a new house and then on top of it deciding the shades and interiors of the same. It took a toll out of me to decide the right furniture. To everyone's surprise, the furniture of the house is being made in Delhi itself excluding the modular kitchen which is being made in Indore  Guess who is doing the interior decoration?? Well, my mausaji itself who is himself a well known interior decorator. I am spending my weekends y visiting lots of catalogs to decide on the design for beds, almirahs, sofa set, etc. Believe me being a computer science student is still easy than this :).

Well right now its 1:04 in my computer clock and i am writing these blogs, yet top study for SCJP which i am targeting by next month or this month end itself. Nothing much just waiting for few more professional challenges; got some good news off late that i am rolling off from my current project  To add an icing to the cake,I would better be happy once i get one challenging project which will test my technical as well as logical skills. "Hope for the best and prepare for the worst", I am living my life with this line, a thin line between virtual reality and yourself.

I think if i carry on more writing these blogs, people will be bored off coz i know i myself don't read those forwarded mails containing healthy content. lol. Hats off to you guys who had the patience to reach till here, i know most of you aint here :)

Sum1 wanted me to update my blogs, so this one is dedicated to that person :) I hope that person has reached here :))

Gud nite and enjoy coz life is really short to sit back and think, So all you software engineers (including me), make things happen than waiting for things to happen. With this message i sign off and promise to add pic of my new house soon in this BLOG-DOM :D Cheerz !!

Fun @ GOA (24th jan-29th jan)

An unplanned journey began on 24th for me and it was none other than the college group of mine which came to the fun fiesta.

24th jan 2006, it was around 8:30 that i boarded the IA flight from Delhi to Mumbai and there began the journey for me.To my surprise, Nisha came to pick me up from the airport.It was gr8 to see her for the first time, a 5'11'' tall pretty looking female on airport to pick up , what could have been a better start to the journey.Anyways we guys went to Band stand from the airport and has a cup of coffee at CCD nearby.Thereafter, it was all exchange of words & thoughts between us and suddenly we found it was the morning of 25th.

I had a brief stay in Mumbai on 25th and we(Me and Amit) had a bus from Mumbai to GOA on 25th evening.So spent some time with Amit at his place and then his workplace.Believe me, to get the tickets that day was really difficult but somehow fortunes favoured us and we got 2 tickets.Finally, at 7:30 in the evening we started the journey to GOA.

We reached GOA on 26th morning where we met the other folks of the group(Atul,Ashish,Gaurav,Keshav).Good to see all the college group ready to roar once again.The trip was special since it was the first time that our group was out for some serious fun.We decided to land up close to Miramar Beach in Panaji and got a reasonably cheap and good dormitory to live in close to the beach.It was good enough for bachelors.Everyone was so excited and full of energies though all of us travelled from different parts of the country.We quickly refreshed ourselves and guess what was our first move? Well we opted to rent bikes, so we got 4 bikes including 2 Avenger, 1 bullet and 1 pulsar.Commuting by bikes in Goa is fun itself.

We kicked off the journey by visiting Miramar Beach.There we had lods of fun in the water and clicked many snaps but truely speaking this beach was not our cup of tea.It was lacking crowd,so we decided to move on.Our next destination was one of the nicest of all beaches Calangute Beach situated in northern part of GOA.It is one of the most crowded beaches of Goa and that is the reason it is quite happening.What next ? Remove the clothes and dive yourself into the water was a call for everyone and thats what guys did.We also had fun on Water Scooters and wanted to go for Para-Sailing but due to lack on wind, we dint have the option available.

Nevertheless, after spending 2-3 hours of stunts in water sporting activities, we decided to land on the Baga Beach which is very close to the Calangute.Infact, in Goa most of the beaches are linked to each other and just needs a bit of walking on the sand.

Baga was again crowded beach and there we had more relaxing time than going in water.We laid ourselves down on the beach in the scorching heat of the sun.It was quite relaxing though.

Next,it was turn of Anjuna Beach and by the time we reached Anjuna, it was evening, so we dint have much options available.So we were waiting for the party which happens late night on Anjuna Beach.So 2 hours of time pass and sipping coffee and chit-chatting saw us finally in the Disc.But guys werent satisfied since the crowd of the disc dint have much of the babes, so we decided to move to some disc which is happening.But unfortunately that day late night parties were not on in most of the disc and few discs dint have Stag entries.To our liking we were able to find one disc MATRIX and me, jitu,atul and ashish thought to party.Rest all were tired and also pissed off, so went for rides and few back to the hotel.We danced on the beats of Goan music and hip hops.Though we were so damn tired but danced like wild beasts in all sort of actions and steps to make the party happening.I love dancing so enjoyed most of it with the crowd.

Finally at about 3 in the night, we decided to go back to the hotel and this is how ended our first day.

Second day to come next ..

31st Decemeber, New Year Bash,Time to freak out , what else ?? Yes Finally, the most awaited night has arrived for us.All over the world, people welcome the new year for it is one of the oldest of all holidays. Most New Year celebrations focus on family and friends. It is a time to reflect on the past and envision a future, perhaps, in a world where people live together in harmony.
For us, it was time to party and really shake our asses on the tones of Aashiq Banaya Aapne, Few more inline Hip Hops and Boy wasn't that fun? Ask Myself, Gaurav,Gunjan or GP, everyone has something to add to this night.
But the question is where were we partying? I know everyone is curious to know about the Venue.This time it was the turn of DSOI club,Dhaulakuan, meant to be an Army/Navy party arena.Somehow GP managed to get passes for us and we were ready to rock 'n' roll .But things were lil different this time than what was expected.I was planning to chill out in my low waste jeans or mebbe some cargo wears or antifits but was strictly asked to be in a dress code.And what was the dress Code? It was Lounge suite or Combination with tie.I got myself dressed up in the new Black Lounge Suit with a black shining tie and sizzling blue Shirt, the one i last wore in Mr.Rajasthan Purush 2002.Here it goes...

The party was full of hot babes and the crowd was lightening energetic.Good to see people of every age shaking themselves hard on the dance floor.For me it was not an exception since i danced for 5 hours coz it is one thing i really enjoy.As usual i dont booze to write anything on that.

Still lot to write... Please dont go !!!

Something is missing indeed... I dunno but I am feeling for past few days that its really something that is missing... I am not doing justice to my potential as a person.What am I doing ? I am working as Software engineer where i am doing coding in JAVA/J2EE , a bit of analysis, etc.. Dats the not thing I want to actually do? Don't ask me then what I need to do?I want to do a lot more than what I am currently doing since I feel the work I am doing is something that anyone can do given some learning.Then how am I different from others? I need to create that difference in me...How to create ? I dunno but I am working towards it.

The thing is, I feel that when we are in this world, we should make our existence count.Currently I feel its not the case.Out of 24 hours, if I spend 12 hours in the office and just doing coding, then what's the use? The question is: " Am I really adding any value to me ?".Let me tell you one thing I know my critics say:"You are very impatient !! Just wait for the things ".Somehow my theory in life is totally different.Here is what I believe: " Don't wait for things to happen,just make it happen" .Mebbe due to this I am always impatient, but I am happy to be like that.

Life is short boss, so we need to make our each moves count and I don't want to be late in that.Einstein used his 5-6% of brains and became so popular and we, average human beings just use 1% of the brains.So imagine how much potential we own and how much are we using it.

Boss time has come for the volcano to erupt.I am ready to gamble but don't want a routine boring life where I am paid for my work.I am much more than that.

I was discussing the same with my college mate Amit Jain who himself is currently working as Software engineer with Polaris Labs,Mumbai.He was also supportive in my thoughts and we just came to a point where we thought we can aim to be future enterpreneurs.I know its too early to make such a statement, but again Amit reminded me something by saying: " Saurabh you made a statement few years back about Modish and we all thought it was just a joke and you made it happen,So you can do it" That was quite a motivational thought by Amit.We have spent some good time, infact 4 years in college together.People used to call us Lambu-Chotu,coz I was too tall and he was too short.lol.Jitendra Verma(Software engineer with ITTI ,Bangalore) is no more an exception to this thought.He is our own Jitu, one of the beloved gangsters of our gang.Myself,amit,Jitu had a strong bonding which still exists though we are at different positions and companies.Jitu also thought and added by saying that he is also fed up with this Software engineering bit.Let me tell you we are not demotivated to say all this.It's just we want to take a step ahead in our career and do something different so that we can be futuristic Ambani's,Tata's but surely not Bill Gates ;) .

Carrying this thought in mind, We are working towards something.Just wait for sometime and you will see that something is what we call it as R 4 "REALITY"

December 25th,2005, Another day of celebration and this time its C 4 Christmas.I have always heard that people from Europe and US are more crazy for this day but it seems that indians are catching up there.We have lods of festivals in India but i doubt the hunger for party time, enjoying holidays & Fun is unending in this country..Yeah i am talking about INDIA, our own HINDUSTAN.

Nevertheless it was quite a pleasant feeling for the whole day as in something is there in air today.Everyone including me was waiting for Santa to gift something.I dunno about others but he was unfair to me as I dint find anything in my plate.

Boy i forgot that 26th is the date for my MCA exams and this time it was Operating Systems.No issues as usual & as casual; i was always, i am currently. lol. You wont belive it, it is 5 in the evening and i just gotta know that i dont have the book from which i am supposed to prepare for the next day's paper.Shucks... But i think i got an excuse for not doing well.Anyways i just went to far-off market and was lucky enough to finally find a book for myself, not that i wanted to finish it in one night.After all i am born intelligent.Was it confidence or over confidence? Well if its over confidence i dont mind falling on the higher side.

Christmas !-! I wanted to celebrate it but dint get any company whom i can ask for? Who says i dint get any company? Lemme correct myself, i enjoy my company also.So was at home and just surfing and for a change for sometime went through some topics so that i get something to write.

It's 9:30 in the night and here comes my college mate online and says in a very typical Desi way,"PADHLE kal exam hai?" Look i have got such caring friends but what the hell was he doing in an offline mode.lol.Anyways then one of my friends called me up and we talked for about 2-3 hours as she was leaving for bangalore.And my clock said, Mr.Saurabh its 4 in the morning and what are your plans for the coming time? I responded saying, "well BAHOOT PADH LIYA aaj, its 4 o'clock in the morning , so i should sleep...After all it wasa tough day indeed".

And i find myself on bed..Really guys i am studying too much these days...What say ?? Any thoughts rather any useful thoughts :)

Hazy & Musical Day --> Saurabh Rocks

Chilly times in Delhi. Winter setting in.17th Dec,2005,its 11 a.m. and i find myself in bed.Ooops, its lil late; infact too late.Ooutta bed, scanning through maah computer.Thats the beginning of the fresh day, a day full of mystical music for me.

I dunno know why Bluffmaster is rocking my ears for the day.Starting the day with Abhishek Bacchan's :Come To Me, Bhool Jaye Sara Jahaan..Ek main aur Ek Tu Hai, Aur hawa mein Jadoo hai...

Its awsome song and seems Abhishek is on song in this mindboggling song.Amazing songs these.... So brilliantly written...

Got a chance to see this song later in the evening at my relative's place and boy abhishek, priyanka and even riteish are sizzling in new looks.

The day started like this and after some time i thought lets take a bath.Its been quite a time i have taken a bath;) and today seemed to be a perfect ocassion, a long awaiting one ;)

You know what, after having a bath i thought , we can have regular baths.Anyways so finally i dont need to live on deodarants.

For a change, i cooked today.Mind you i am a good cook and today was the day to cook my favorite PULAO.To my liking it was tasty..yummmy.. delicious.. lods of words which really cant be expressed.

The day passed away so soon and in the evening I was at realtive's place to have some delicious food and homely environment.

Thats it and again its late nite and i am finding myself infront of computer.Bluffmaster or me the Tuffmaster :)

Ciao, Tomorrow with Indo-Srilanka match, the third round of battle...

The Lost World......

World of Glamour...Neva had anything in mind to be part of the journey but it happened.Not just it happened, it happened a quite a young age.I still remember that i was a shy fella .. still remember when friends of my sister used to turn up and i used to hide myself behing the curtains, lock myself in the room.

Still cant forget that day, when i was in class 7th and i just changed my school and a girl asked me very innocently: " Are you from boy's school ?? , You dint have any girls in the school". I couldnt really understand the intention of such a question and i found myself in a groove.Inadvertently, i said Nopes.
But somewhere at the back of my mind, i thought something is missing in life .. that crux is indeed lost somwhere.Here is what i was --- :)

Somehow my sister helped me in coming outta it.She asked me to change my personality to perfection, nd suggested me to step up into gears.Well, then came modelling, yeah to my surprise.

I managed good results in academics as always and cleared class 12th and then it was ride for much awaited adventurous journey.I got admission in IT college in jaipur and henceforth a change to go out of indore and start a new career.Again the focus was studies, but this time modelling came on the way.First time, started with STUDIO BIG BOSS in jaipur.

Those ramps were indeed fascinating and presenting you infront of 1000s of lads was indeed an experience worth remembering.I was somehow becoming confident in my goes.I was really enjoying my role as a model(so called).

I did dozens of shows thereafter with good names in jaipur including Studio Big Boss,Rajshree groups,Blasters,Rahul Taneja, etc.But this book was completed when i got a chance to be part of Mr.Rajasthan Purush 2002, a modelling & talent hunt which is quite hyped in Rajasthan atleast, if not in india.Cleared rounds as they were coming and it was unbelieveable coz i neva had any intention of clearing 6 rounds.A 4 day stay at city's 5 start comfort Hotel Clarks Amer for all the participants was quite an experience to cherish.It felt really great to see people looking after you as if you are some great personalities.Those practice sessions with hot models... ouchh i slipped .. mmmm..Thats why its good to practice then to stare ;)

Finally some tense & anxious moments and i was announced to be the finalist and i was simply out of my chairs.Cool dude !! Thats wat was the reaction of some of those evenet management people.I started feeling as if i am something.Mind you i dont look so appealing but yaah not that bad also.I always thought this height of 6'2'' is something which i shoulnt be having since i used to stand at last in the school days and used to be a back bencher as well.But somehow it came off well for me in this field.

Anyways, finally i was amongst the top 5 finalists but that was it for me coz i was not the winner.But still dint have regretsSo i became from so called model to Mr.Model , thats great isnt it?

Then it seems it was not the end of it.I had something else to prove to someone.I came up with my own Event Management company by the name MODISH in 2002 which was indeed a bold move at a very young age of 20.I agree it was nota well planned event, but promoted some good models in indore and got some good attention of media.I had lots of interviews and it was a great feeling to be part of such a big event.Somehow i feel i could have made it a real experience but some people ditched me at wrong time to carry on this event.

I dint give up and managed it on my own and i realised that BOSS whenever you are down and under, family comes the first.I got lot of encouragement from my family.I cant forget my dad calling me up and signing a complete blank cheque book and handing it over to me saying " Beta you are a fighter, dont let us down, you need to prove us you can do it alone".I know it might sound a bit filmy, but this was the reality.I fought it all alone and when i completed the show i hugged my dad and was all in tears.Shows i am emotional person as well; oh ya i am a cancerian.

One popular question in the due course from media was:

" You are too young to carry on such a mission of promoting models; How do you see it going forward ?" and i think they got their answers after the event.Thanks mom, dad,manisha and nidhi.You are great; simply great.I am falling short of words for you guys.

I think its becoming little serious now.ahan.Lets change the track.But you know what after being in modelling for past 4 or 5 years, still i am single and here is a common question girls ask me-"Why are you still a single; why not a GF ?".Can someone answer this for me ?? I would really appreciate it.

But the truth and the fact is i am still a single; ready to mingle !!!!

Now no more shows as i have moved to a new horizon in my career.Finally, i moved out of jaipur and i am in delhi, the city better termed as DILWALON KI DILLI.Definitely i am now in a new role -Software Professional.I am enjoying it.

So thats it for the day... I know it was quite a long blog but just thought of putting my past experiences as well memories in words.At times i feel this is what motivates me and encourages me.You guys can try it out.Enjoy !!!